Archive for August, 2009

Nothing much to say here, but I’d like to recommend that y’all check out Sarah Haskins’ Target: Womenpieces on infoMania.  They are hilarious and true.  I’m on a feminism kick, sue me.  It also got me finally looking up the proper rules for Apostrophe use, where I learned something new.  Three cheers for proper grammar usage.

Check out this video:

It’s a little long, as it’s a compilation of many of her previous clips, but I really enjoyed it.  Check out the smaller ones if you don’t have time.  They are all worth it. 

(Oh shut up, I actually did some work so far today.  Don’t judge me, Judgey McPatronizing.)

I honestly have no idea if anyone is reading this. I think I’ve decided that I don’t care. Whatever this is, it’ll grow legs and scuttle all over the place until somebody smashes it with his shoe and then looks at it and sees the disgusting splatter. I’d like to work up to that. Let me be your disgusting splatter.

Updates, Updates, Updates! Since everyone is so very interested in me. Or maybe I’m just interested in me. Have you seen the About Me link at the top? I think I may be a closet narcissist. I have done nothing interesting ever! Listen to me talk about myself!

Home Life: Okay not much progress here, BUT I’m planning on it!  I may take Friday off to go clean my old apartment.  Nothing new with the current place, though.  I’m poor this month, leave me alone!  Um, I called my great uncle?  That’s not an update.  You haven’t met him, but he’s taken to talking about how he’s going to die soon.  But he says it quite happily (his wife died last year, and I think he’s ready), and I should be happy because I’m in his will.  Thanks Uncle George, but can we talk about something else now? 

Health: I am on my fifth cup of water so far today.  I figure that’s as good a place to start as any.  I went shopping on Saturday and bought soy milk!  I’ve decided that I’m maybe going to cut actual milk out of my diet and just drink soy milk.  There is no actual reason for this.  It isn’t a health thing, since I’ll still be eating plenty of cheese and butter.  It just makes me feel like I’m doing something.  I predict it will last through this one container of soy milk.  Um, I made foods!  I made tuna salad for lunches this week, which is always a tasty option.  I made this great sautéed chicken in white wine.  Good diet, Drunky!  See, y’all, my brain is still picking fights.  Some things won’t change.  But yeah, goal for the week is to cook something for myself every night, and check out the Lincoln Park Farmer’s Market on Saturday.

Career/Future: Did some LSAT review on Saturday, which was fun.  I am currently focusing on proper strategies for doing the Games portion of the test, since that is the weakest part for me.  It’s not that I can’t reason it out, but that I just don’t know the best way to display the information, so I often end up horribly confusing myself.  And I tend to overthink things and complicate matters, which is very bad when it comes to doing these games.  Gotta work on that.  Goal for the week is to get through the rest of the games chapter and take another practice LSAT this weekend.

Social: Move along folks, nothing to see here.   I guess this is okay, but considering everything else I am doing, this may just simmer.  On the back burner.  I’ll go out late night this weekend.  How about that?

And, ahem, In Conclusion: I think I’ve decided to get a subscription to Bitch Magazine.  Because there’s nothing that my apartment with Alex needs more than some Bitch on the coffee table.

Wow, I really don’t seem to care too much about this now, do I?  I went to the trouble of creating a new webpage, paying lots of money to get myself set up, and now I’m at a total loss for what I should be talking about.  I guess an official webpage is something a bit more serious.  It’s not just a place where I can vent to people about crap that I probably think way too much about–now it must have a real purpose.  It must be some kind of specific chronicle.  I need to have consistency.  Purpose.  Maybe that’s what my previous blog was lacking.  Hell, the mood wasn’t even consistent. 

I get into these self-reflective moods every now and then, but nothing ever really changes.  I bitch and moan, and then just continue about my way.  I think I’ve even discussed this attitude and vowed to change before.  Hrmm.  Okay. 

Well something happened.  I don’t exactly know what the deal is (okay, I do, but don’t really feel ready to discuss it here), but today I woke up feeling strangely proactive.  I think I’ve now experienced what it’s really like to just go with the flow, not trust my instincts, and let something else dictate what I’m doing.  And you know what?  I got hurt.  Mostly I’m just mad at myself for being so stupid, but damn it really sucks.  And I’m done.  Done.  Screw impotent rage.  I’m over it.  And when I sat down to write another entry today, I finally figured out what this blog is going to be about.  What it should have been about this entire time.  Not TV and film reviews (well, okay, I can still do that, just not all the time).  Not me talking about weird interactions and letters to people from my past.  Not even me arguing with my brain and displaying feminist rage.  I’m going to use this space to track my actual life progress.  I’m going to be as frank and straightforward as I am able, and I think writing everything here will keep me honest.  If  I have to stare at my lack of progress and see all of you staring at it too (all, uh, five of you or something?), that would just be depressing.  Okay, fine, I’ll still argue with my brain.  I have fun writing those, after all.

I’ve decided that a staple for this webpage will be tracking my “progress” or rather just sharing with y’all how I’m doing in various facets of my life.  Facets that I have admittedly been coasting in for a couple of years.  August is the beginning and end of many things for me, so this would be a perfect time to do this.  Here we go:

Home Life: Currently have two apartments.  Both are too messy.  One needs to be seriously cleaned by the end of the month, so that I get my whole security deposit back.  I need to buy blinds to replace the ones the cats ripped up, and I’ll need to put them up myself.  Need to make sure that place is shining before I turn my keys back in.  Find some way to fix the radiator cover that my cats broke by walking all over it.  My current apartment is too cluttered.  I need more organizational materials.  I have to wait until next month, when I don’t have to pay two rents, but that place will be cleaned dammit.  Also, look into getting a counter space for kitchen.  There’s apparantly a good one at IKEA (thanks for at least one thing, Joe).  Look into buying more art when I actually have money.  Frame the art.  Why is living life like a real person so expensive? Goals: Start living like a real person before the end of the month.  Ensure I get my whole security deposit back on my old apartment.  Organize my new life.

Health: I keep making half-hearted gestures concerning this, so I think I’ll start a little more slowly and build to an appropriate apex this time.  In the spirit of the movie (and real-life blog) Julie & Julia (omigod I want to see this movie so badly, it’s embarrassing), I should try to make more real food.  The intention is always there, but I have a nasty habit of becoming too lazy and not wanting to cook.  I’ve got those cookbooks, though.  And I really do love cooking.  And baking.  So I think I’m going to start making real food for myself.  Experiment more.  Make coffee every day.  Use those muffin tins I bought myself.  Buy more fresh vegetables from the Farmer’s Market.  Also, working out.  This is getting to be a tough one.  The will is there, but it’s so easily thwarted.  I keep talking about 6/7, because I know me.  If I work out fewer than 6 out of 7 days, I’m much more likely to find excuses to not go to the gym.  I’m likely to put it off indefinitely.  I don’t like that I’ve gotten this way, but it’s the truth.  So I’ve got to do something to force myself to go.  Bribe myself even.  I’ve decided upon the one thing that will make me go to the gym for 6/7 days.  The one little pleasure that I allow myself.  The one thing that I can always enjoy no matter what.  If I go to the gym for 6/7, on the 7th day, my day off, I can buy myself a book or dvd or other novelty item.  If I don’t, well, I don’t get one.  Simple as that.  And I mean it.  People, slap my hand and make me go run if I buy something and haven’t earned it.  It’s the only way I’ll get my act together.  Goals: End this month cooking myself 90% of my meals, shopping every other week, and going to the gym for 6/7 days of the week.

Career/Future: Okay, this is the stuff that really needs to get going.  And luckily, it’s the one thing that I can control the most in this coming month.  The LSATs are coming up, and I need to seriously study.  I took a practice LSAT this past weekend and realized that while I have a good start, I need to get my score up by at least 12 points before I take the real thing at the end of September.  I think I can do it, if I practice my games and do tons more practice tests.  I also need to figure out how I should treat my current job.  Should I just stay here, or casually look for work elsewhere?  I think that if I see something cool, I should go for it, even though I’ll have to leave the job in a year.  Because, yeah, GOING TO LAW SCHOOL.  The more I say it, the more it’ll happen.  Goals: Boost my LSAT score by hardcore studying, so that I can kick ass in September.  Apply to awesome law schools.  Figure out what I want out of my job for this coming year.

Social: This is a bit more flexible than others, I guess.  I just want to keep having fun?  Go out with people more.  Go have a beer with my cute neighbor.  Don’t have any expectations and don’t be too hard on some people.  But also, I should make sure to trust my instincts.  They are often smarter than I am, and listening to them will help me avoid pain and humiliation.  So, uh, trust people and yet don’t?  I guess?  This is very sketchy, I know.  Um, take chances?  Be spontaneous?  Try not to be a recluse?  Why are all of these questions?  I’m starting to feel uncomfortable.  Uh, Goals: Try to have fun, while still being responsible.  Don’t do anything that you don’t immediately feel comfortable doing.  Do try to meet new people, though.  Wear more jewelry. And get some more clothes that aren’t t-shirts and jeans, already.  Do that with your next paycheck.  Geez.

So, yeah, people.  I’ll let y’all know what the deal is.  I also have a few miscellaneous ones that I’ll talk about later.  Join me on my journey to become a real person with a real life!